Matthew Shepherd, killed because he was gay??

This article by a superior talanted blogger, who I follow, Makes Me Go……Hummmm😡 and a little bit angry, but it does really make you think. To me that is what, blogging is all about, to give information, insite and opinions of just an everyday person, like myself. That is why I believe this article is worth re-blogging, and not just a comment at the bottom. So here’s my opinion…..😌 for what it’s worth😨❗

Matthew Sheppard, for what ever reason, was murdered by two homophobic white supremacist (by their own admissions) and unfortunately he is not the only, casualty of many year’s of prosecution , of homophobic hate groups and religious organizations, who promote hatred and bigotry, in the fight for the LGBTQ communities to just have basic and equal rights under the law! Let me share a personal example; In 2001, I was abducted by three, young teenagers in North Las Vegas, NV. All three were children or grandchildren of the Arian Brotherhood, in that area and targeted me, simply because I was an openly gay man and because I was also a simi-famous male model. My abduction and toucher was due to the fact, because of their initiation into the white supremacist gang as official adult members. I was 38 year’s young at the time and majority owner of a 5 star restaurant on Las Vegas Blvd South. I was not on crystal meth or any other illegal narcotics and was not out cruising for sex. I was in the first year of my now, 19 year relationship, to my wonderful husband Francisco, whom I married legally in, January 2016! I was held for 2 days and literally tourched. I was stabbed, numerous times, shot with a pellet gun 24 times, (I still have a few of those pellets, in areas that would cause possible nerve damages, if removed, in various parts of my body) was repeatedly hit in the head with a pipe (I had 5 years of reconstruction surgery, on my face because of this) electrocuted in the groin area, had my penis/ball sack bound so tight that it caused gangrene to my ball sack, had my spleen removed in emergency surgery, lost four and a half pints of blood, spent 6 months fighting many different staff infections due to bodily excretions I was forced to eat and was pretty much with in hours of losing my life!💀 The reason I survived, was simply due to the fact that one of the kids grandmothers and high ranking member of this supremacist gang, remember me as one of the, Calvin Klein and Andrew Christian underwear models from the 80s & 90s and was actually thought I was hot. So as messed up as I was, she said that if I was able to preform intercourse with her, she would be able to prove I in fact was not a homosexual and that her grandchildren had made a mistake and they would have to let me go, now wether that was true or not we will never know. After, being raped by her and her boyfriend (yes boyfriend) and being injected with a form of meth called peanut butter ( which was the first time I had ever done any illegal narcotics, much less anything intravenously, not done by a doctor) I was taken by her and the boyfriend to a hospital and dumped at the emergency room door! I spent 3 months in the hospital, the first month just fighting for my life. Ignored by the police, when it became known I was gay, and because I had been forcibly injected with a form of meth. originally wrote into their reports that, ” the incident was due to homosexual activity and drug addiction” which none of this was true. The physical pain of this was no where near, the years of emotional suffering I endured and 40% of the emotional pain was caused by the ignorance and bigotry of the police detectives who just wrote me off mainly because of my sexual orientation. Believe me the absolute worst part, was after I was released from the hospital and went down to the police station to talk with detectives ( they could not be bothered to come to me, the three months I was hospitalized) we were ignored and put off, and one of the detectives even wrote a note on top of. The 300 page detailed reports, to the district attorneys office, “WHY SHOULD WE DESTROY THE LIVES OF THREE YOUNG WHITE KIDS OVER SOME OLD FAGIOT”! Refuring to the new hate crime laws (thanks to the law’s passed , because of Matthew Sheppards sacrifice and his mother’s campaigning) that had just been passed, adding another 25 years to every charge, that they were able to get a conviction on. This complete act of indifference and bigotry from the north Las Vegas police department went on for months, until my mother called her good friend, of 20 years, newly elected President George W. Bush’s wife. Who was nice enough to put in a call to, the then Republican Governor of Nevada, on my mother’s and my behalf. The next day, I had the detectives and a few high ranking police officers from, not only the, North Las Vegas police department, but the Las Vegas police department knocking on my door. Two years and nine months after, I had been kidnapped, tortured, sexually assaulted/raped, endured extreme emotional/physical (past and present) pain, forcibly drugged and falsely accused of being a drug addict, sexual predator, (by various bigoted, religious and social groups due to the fact both guys were 19 and the girl was 17, at the time I was 38) in the media and in the 7 months of court proceedings. All three, were convicted of numerous changes, (5 for the girl, 9 for each of the guys) and added to each charge was, a 25 year straight time after serving their, sentences for the original charges. I received so much hatered from, church organizations, police officers, and just every day people, my husband and I had to relocate to another state for 3 years just to live a normal life. I could not stand in front of a window at night for year’s because of this, along with other crippling phobias I have spent year’s working out in therapy, but the absolute worst part is the trust I lost for people and still haven’t fully recovered, 17 year’s later.

So, yes the crystal meth and drug addiction, has, is and will be a major problem in the LGBTQ communities as well as, the public communities everywhere, but unless you were there, either being the victim or the perpetrator of any physical attack, towards members of the LGBTQ communities or victims of any horrific physical crime, you can only guess at why of what circumstances led to the, crime! Like it was said in the article above, people and organizations have a way of twisting incidents to help their own causes and agendas. Just like, many Christian😈 churches and organizations, twist the bible to vindicate or excuse their bigoted hate filled agendas, to force people to believe in their fairytales and find excuses to get away with violence & murder!😱 Unfortunately, the one thing our Lord God in heaven gave each and everyone of us, is free will, freedom of choice to live the life we choose! When we die, we answer to God, not to the Gerry Falwells of the world and God. So after hearing my personal story of being and surviving a physical hate crime incident, ask yourself what is; is this his story, their story or the the real story. Remember, many so-called Christian churches not only financed the defense of the, two men who murdered Matthew Sheppard, (which is so hypocritical, sending a message” God says it’s okay to murder a man, but not okay to love him) but used Matthew Sheppards head bouncing around in flames as screen savers. His death, is one of the worst examples of a homophobic hate crime, to date, before during and after the incident. So you can say twist or add anything you want to his story, but no matter what the circumstances were leading up to it or what he may or may not been on, Matthew Sheppard did not deserve to die at the hands of two self proclaimed white supremacist, who did in fact rob him of his possessions and his life. Both men where in a gay establishment (bar), with plans to rob and kill (at their own admissions) “a fagiot” 😡 and thanks to his and many others sacrifice, I am now able to, be with the man I have loved for 19 years in a legal monogamous marriage, with out fear and prosecution! In 1982 I had to leave my home state, because of a homophobic law called the “Sodomy Law” in which two consenting adults of the same sex engaging in sex, could be arrested on a sex change and put in jail. The last state ( my home state) finally was forced to get rid of this bigoted ridiculous homophobic law in 2005, and for the first time I was able to move back home, with my husband, but unfortunately it took away many close relationships with me family simply because I was forced to live so faraway from my family just to be the man God created me to be, these are just a few of the reasons people like, the author of the above blog, 20 years after the fact, make me so angry when they try to sugar coat of diminish the importance of any life changing event, especially when it involves the sacrifice of someone’s life.

Thank you Matthew and a hug thanks to his mother, who since then has campaigned tirelessly, to bring a positive change out of the tragic loss of her beautiful son!

This is the way I see it, on something that makes me go Hummmm!😉

By AJHarlequin


Mother’s Cont……🤣

My last journal entry was actually about my mother (mostly) and stepmother! I realized after reading it, I released some pent up…Aaaaaaaa… about both of them, so let me clarify, that my mother is everything I’ve, put into words. My stepmother, was not anywhere near as bad as my mother. She probably is the reason my father was around another 10yrs or so, and because of her training in phycology (She’s a Doctor in phycology) my father and I, were able to get closer. He actually was very open to my legal marriage, with my husband of 19yrs! Unfortunately, I was just to angry with my mother that I was not able to treat her well. I truly appreciate the help she gave, because in the end my late father was the only one who really counted, and his acceptance of my life made me lose 90% of the pain and anger inside. So… thanks MLH I will never forget you, and if you ever need anything please let me know.
Now my mother in law (who lives with us by the way) she makes my mother look like, Glenda the good witch! This is hard to do, I swear my mother has flying monkeys in her bedroom closet. Yes, I used the word witch, this is not a medaphor for woman, wether you choose to believe me or not (& personally I don’t care, if you believe me) I come from a long line of witch’s (mostly good, a few evil one’s) mostly, all of female, but there’s been a few male witch’s (5 to be exact) and I am the latest of them. There’s very few men in our family, every generation has one male, but every so often there’s two males born and one is born with gifts. No I can’t wiggle my nose, or telaport, or do the Hollywood version, I can read minds, I’m very intuitive and yes I have the ability to cast and make up spells. I also look 20yrs younger than I am, I also have the ability to see, call upon and control angel’s, demons, spirit’s, other magical creatures and other things that I have no idea where they came from or what they are, probably other dimensions. No I have never and will never use my gifts to personally harm others or cause grief. Most people are quick to, put god or the devil in there, but it’s not like that at all, there really is good and evil. You also need to remember, we have free will, so a person is either good or evil. We also have power over all angel’s demons and spirit’s, so the only way any of these entity’s can harm you is…if you let them. Ok I’m sure you are saying what the hell does that have to do with mother’s… will only one generation of my family has a witch in it, well my mother is the witch for her generation and her mother was for her generation. I have 2 sister’s and a brother, unfortunately my brother passed away in 1997 and I only see my sister’s once in a while. Between them, I have 4 niece’s and one nephew. None of which have shown any family gifts and my 3 greatnieces are still babies. So my mother issues are not only with normal experiences, but a lot of abnormal issues as well.
So back to the monster in law (AAJ) she is not a witch, has no special gifts (unless you consider causing absolute kaous a gift) she is one of those evil people that are not happy unless everyone else is unhappy. She has, 6 living children (my husband included) numerous extended family and numerous adult grandchildren, but not one of them will take her in to live with them in their homes. Why it’s simple, she uses the sweet little old lady act ( yes I mean act) and lies to athoritys ( police, social services, ect) when she can’t get what she wants, or steals things that get people mad at each other, or just doing hateful, nasty and evil things to everyone, her whole life is one big Hummmm!😰 There are so many examples, in my arsonile, but let me give you the worst example; one month my husband and I have been at a marriage retreat, and just wanted to be alone for the last week of my vacation. His mommy dearest (as usual) spent all their money (her, his late brother, his other brother, his nephew, his niece and greatnephew) and needed $50s. Will when we did not answer the phone or the door, the old bat convinced two uniformed rooky (key word) police officers (both have been fired) to come to our house and arrest me for murdering my husband 😱🤔……yes I was being pulled out of our house being cuffed, until my husband poked his head out and both officers, said…Oh Your Alive…..and ran as fast as they could….. saying call your mom.. call your mom! Honestly I have never seen police officers run so fast, and with their hands over their badges. That’s where the gifts come in, even though I didn’t see thier badge numbers, I knew them and reported them that after noon, both were fired for not following proper protocol. My gifts and ability to cast a spell or two, have also prevented the old prune from getting away with many other evil lies she has come up with over the years. Unfortunately, because of her hatred of me, (or every other in law in the family) she also attracts every user and looser you can imagine, who try to take advantage of the situation for financial gain. Why, is she living with us and under my care? Will my husband’s baby brother, was taking care of her for years, unfortunately died of a herion overdose (personally I think he did it on purpose, just to get away from the bitch) she spent the next year and a half, going through her in tire family and was about to be put into a state run nursing home. I stepped in and kept that from happening. If you are thinking, how nice…. thanks but being nice to her had nothing to do with it, I was thinking about the other residents of the nursing home, there spending their golden years in a state run nursing facility 😨…. don’t you think that they have enough problems with out throwing, the one woman horror show in there👹! Then there’s the iorny, she has tormented every in law, and was the major cause of them ending ( I’ve been an in law longer than anyone else of her children, 8 children and not one of their marriages or relationship’s lasted more than 10yrs…. think about it 🤔) I was being given full custody of my mother in law. Believe me she keeps me on my toes, and if I’m not battling her, I’m battling some user/looser who is trying get an illegal payday. Personally, I call it karma, her bad and my good, coming together in perfect harmony! And yes, if I don’t take care of her, she will go to, a state run nursing facility, lock down! So, like everything, you can see the good, bad or whole picture and make up your mind. Like my grandparents always said; life is a series of problems that needs to be solved…. how you solve them makes you the person who you are or will become and believe me I’m going to become a saint dealing with the three ring circus I deal with on a daily basis!!!!
Talk about things that make you go Hummm 😇☮️!!!!!
Be kind to everyone, live every day…. like it’s your last and love yourself (like the Goddess, RuPaul says) because if you don’t love yourself, how in the hell can anyone love you 😀☮️😎!!!!!!?????
Today, one of the greatest female singers and an incredible human being, went home to touch the face of God, today…. Aretha we are going to miss you, the world is a colder place without your presence! ☮️ & ❤️ to you and your family!

AJ Harlequin